I do know next to nothing about you. Because you do the same thing every single person does, you choose what you show people. I'm not saying that you, personally, have to go out and become a propagandist. Or that you should drop whatever it is you're doing in order to concentrate instead on this. All I'm saying is that it does matter, and you seem very determined to just—
( a sound of frustration. )
Manipulating people with lies is bad! Yes! Understanding how that's done is useful. Someone should care!
You know plenty about me. I've been utterly forthcoming with you - you just haven't been very interested.
[ Then she takes a breath and tries to get her spike of irritation under control. Quieter, slower, more firmly: ]
Look, everything I know, I've had to fight to know, 'cause no one likes for a girl like me to be educated. So I don't like it when I get accused of being willfully ignorant. All right? Please don't say that, even if you're trying to prove a point, 'cause it really gets under my skin. And I do care how manipulation is done; I'm just saying that there's ways that you can live without doing it, and that it oughtn't be necessary.
I'm not dismissing you. Honestly, Gwen, this is what got us into that original argument in the first place. When I state my viewpoint, you immediately jump to oh, you're not listening to me. I can listen to you without gobbling up your opinions and agreeing with them.
( there's an actual slam of the crystal down, and audible footsteps. a long, necessary pause, on the other end of which gwenaëlle counts backwards from fifty. when she returns: )
[ Kitty clenches her teeth as well, struggling to swallow the urge to scold Gwen like a child for her behavior. The woman is simply strange, Kitty reminds herself; she's strange, but means well. Chastising her for being strange won't get anyone anywhere.
So. ]
That performance is a part of life. That people represent themselves in certain ways, and that people pick up ideas about other people regardless, so image management is important.
( the small sound of disbelief on the other end is muted, disappointed. hurt, which feels stupid, but makes her less inclined to be sorry for hurting kitty back. )
You think I'm shallow and the only thing I care about is appearances. So what's important is that now I know that and I don't know that I should waste any further breath that you can just use to decide my opinion is whatever you like.
All you took from everything I said was 'image management is important'? That's what you think I'm talking about?
( most of the time, gwenaëlle really is just sort of an angry lunatic, which can make it harder to tell how unsubtly she wears her heart on her sleeve. her heart is an asshole, like the rest of her. in a way, the hurt in moments like this only underscores the general straightforwardness of the rest of her. there's very little dissembling. she just feels things, immensely. )
I don't bloody know! That was about seven different speeches of five minutes each, wasn't it. Have you ever thought that maybe the problem's less that I'm not listening and more that you're saying a lot of stuff that's coming right out of your head without much attention being paid to whether or not I'll understand it? It's not always the other person's fault!
Oh my God. Stop being petulant. All I'm saying is try to make a little effort to pay attention to the person you're talking to. Check to see if they'll understand it. Weren't you just talking about stories? Every story's written for an audience, isn't it?
I've told you a dozen times if I've told you once. If you haven't heard it by now, you're the one with no interest in me. I'm a stupid commoner, raised to be stupid, kept stupid. Deliberately. I don't talk about this and I don't know how to talk about this. I don't know how many ways I need to explain that I'm just ignorant and pathetic. All right?
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:32 am (UTC)If you think that - honestly think that - then you know nothing at all about me.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:35 am (UTC)( a sound of frustration. )
Manipulating people with lies is bad! Yes! Understanding how that's done is useful. Someone should care!
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:39 am (UTC)[ Then she takes a breath and tries to get her spike of irritation under control. Quieter, slower, more firmly: ]
Look, everything I know, I've had to fight to know, 'cause no one likes for a girl like me to be educated. So I don't like it when I get accused of being willfully ignorant. All right? Please don't say that, even if you're trying to prove a point, 'cause it really gets under my skin. And I do care how manipulation is done; I'm just saying that there's ways that you can live without doing it, and that it oughtn't be necessary.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:41 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:45 am (UTC)( there's an actual slam of the crystal down, and audible footsteps. a long, necessary pause, on the other end of which gwenaëlle counts backwards from fifty. when she returns: )
Tell me what you think I'm saying.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:50 am (UTC)So. ]
That performance is a part of life. That people represent themselves in certain ways, and that people pick up ideas about other people regardless, so image management is important.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:52 am (UTC)That's not what's important about that.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:53 am (UTC)Then what's important.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-11-23 09:55 am (UTC)No, apparently I was simply too ignorant to understand. So please, explain to me.
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Date: 2018-11-23 09:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-11-23 10:02 am (UTC)How'd you come to that conclusion, exactly?
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:06 am (UTC)( most of the time, gwenaëlle really is just sort of an angry lunatic, which can make it harder to tell how unsubtly she wears her heart on her sleeve. her heart is an asshole, like the rest of her. in a way, the hurt in moments like this only underscores the general straightforwardness of the rest of her. there's very little dissembling. she just feels things, immensely. )
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:23 am (UTC)I don't bloody know! That was about seven different speeches of five minutes each, wasn't it. Have you ever thought that maybe the problem's less that I'm not listening and more that you're saying a lot of stuff that's coming right out of your head without much attention being paid to whether or not I'll understand it? It's not always the other person's fault!
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:24 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:42 am (UTC)Fine, I shouldn't have misjudged the interest of mine.
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:46 am (UTC)I've told you a dozen times if I've told you once. If you haven't heard it by now, you're the one with no interest in me. I'm a stupid commoner, raised to be stupid, kept stupid. Deliberately. I don't talk about this and I don't know how to talk about this. I don't know how many ways I need to explain that I'm just ignorant and pathetic. All right?
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-11-23 10:56 am (UTC)[ Her face is not. She blinks back tears of humiliation. A little of it comes through in her voice, choked and miserable. ]
All right? So give it a sweet little name, make excuses, but at the end of the day I just can't get it.
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Date: 2018-11-23 10:57 am (UTC)I'm never going to have any time for the idea of your imaginary stupidity.
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Date: 2018-11-23 11:02 am (UTC)[ Her voice is bitter. It'd be mocking if it were less unhappy. ]
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