[ She shakes her head - she could argue it. She has argued it deeply more than once with more than one person. Because it all came down to one simple point.
Those who could not stand by those that loved them did not deserve their protection. ]
Your word, Kitty, that is all I need. [ And while she is here - in that same flat, even delivery that promises and never, never takes back. ] I will never see that happen to you, not ever. No matter what passes, I would cut my own hands off before I let another take you to such a fate.
[ She finds a flush creeping over her face, deep enough that she can feel it in her ears. It's not embarrassment, it's - it's something far more complicated than that. She doesn't know what to do with the feeling. ]
I just - I didn't mention it because I wanted you to...My point is that I've faced it before, and I'm willing to face it again. I don't dislike war 'cause I'm some coward.
Then don't make excuses that one is better than the other, or you betray your own naivety and they will take advantage of it. It would be one thing if you were scared to fight. It's another to think you will be somehow sparing the people you speak of.
[ She takes the steps back, firm, that roll of shoulders and the flat way she places her steps that land, shoulder width apart, ready for - something, anything. Always. ]
Because in the best case scenario, everything you do is pointless, nothing changes and you just wasted your time. In the worst, when you finally manage to execute someone who does matter, you bring down war but to people that never even had a chance to defend themselves because you thought you would be enough to protect them, you thought it would be better this way. It isn't, it never was, and you can't spare them and you never could. Then they will hate you all the more for thinking you were God to their prayers.
[ Right back into it, except now Kitty is having a harder time working up a head full of steam because she's still feeling fidgety and self-conscious over Lakshmi's prior comment. She runs a hand through her hair and tries to remember where she was - Right. ]
I'm not saying that assassination is perfect. I'm not saying it's even good. Again, I - my - I've seen what comes of it. [ Best not to dwell. If Lakshmi didn't take any great note of the confession of Kitty-the-teenage-assassin, then - best not to remind her of it. ] It's another bad option, but it's better than war. But neither of them is the right way to go.
[ And like everything she does, she won't say something that isn't her concern until it becomes important.
So get ready in two weeks for her to bring up that murder. ]
No, it isn't. It's just a precursor to war, except now you've been a fool and not given anyone an ability to defend themselves. Violence begets violence, and if you begin in it you will end in more of it.
[ The last, she grits out, hard in her mouth as a horse would go against a bit. Hurt, so painfully cut to the quick. ] I listened to you - when you said that the common man were treated worse than animals in your homeland. Even when it offended my faith to see you treat an animal so. I have stood beside Englishmen in their own lands to help fight their government on their own soil. I listened, to their pain and suffering, like it was my own. Perhaps you could do me the favour of listening in return instead of judging those who were pushed too far. The heroes of my land who gave their lives to free their home.
[ And Kitty shoots Lakshmi a look. This isn't the main point here, but she can't not call this out. ]
I'm pretty sure what you did was insist that I apologize to the animal and then stormed home and stopped talking to me for weeks when I wouldn't. That's quite a liberal definition of 'listened to me.'
I asked you to do something that mattered to me, but you insisted you did not have to care about other than that which has grieved you. Yes, I grew angry with you. Yes I took my time to my peace with it and understand where you came from. But I did, and I did not belittle you for feeling as you did once I understood it, I was wrong.
And again, let's remember that I didn't mistreat the horse. I said a single mean word about it, and it doesn't speak English anyway, so its feelings weren't even hurt.
[ Anyway. ]
And I'm not judging your heroes. I don't know anything about your heroes. I'm saying that war is the wrong choice. Always. Because it's a hundred times more people who suffer, and they suffer for years, and it drags on and on and on with more and more deaths while the leaders get fat off the profits. At least if there's an assassination, they've got to suffer themselves, rather than sitting around chuckling about how much they made selling guns.
[ her head rolls back, save her, save her from the arrogance of youth. Save her more exactly in this moment, from herself. ]
Kitty! I don't expect you to understand but if I must spell out to you - I will.
[ slow breath, slow breath. ]
Stop thinking so small or you will never change anything. I killed a damn man in tevinter, did it stop Corypheus the next week from taking the city? No? Funny that.
So you've accomplished all your goals, have you? The British government's been brought low, there are no more werewolves or vampires, and your homeland's free?
[ Kitty doesn't know who the Haitians are, but - the other two are familiar to her - territories of England. She shakes her head - ]
Maybe they've achieved independence in your world, sure. But that only answers one of my questions. Is the British government brought low, and are the abuses of people that force them to become werewolves ended.
They've lessened, now that I've taken to blowing up the UIC ships and actively and consistently engage the company guards and their pets at every opportunity to disrupt all outgoing trade on every level.
[ she won't pretend she hasn't turned England's streets to battlefields, because there are things she has sorrow for, it isn't helping people who had no one else to stand for them. ]
You don't know anything other than that? [ Well - ] Why do vampires make more vampires? And how many of the werewolves are voluntarily so? D'you have any allies who are vampires or werewolves?
[ the look on her face says it all really. Them. ]
The Order of Her Majesty's Knights. Blackcoats is what everyone else calls them. Eternally sworn to protect England's shores against the Half-breed scourge. Or something like that. These days they mostly butcher the poor on United India's orders.
[ She huffs - look for that guilt all you want Kitty. ]
They didn't matter until I came to England. Technically our goals were aligned, regardless of the fact they had been twisted and corrupted like the rest of their land to ever see it that way.
That's a grand idea Kitty, of course, I should I do that. Why did I never think of it? [ Then she clicks her fingers, theatrically rude. Perhaps Byerly would be proud of just how scathing it comes out. ] Wait, I forgot, I sent them letters that never reached them. Because Lord Hastings and his ilk carry all the letters in and out of India, and had stopped them from leaving by destroying it all because the entire British system is in their pocket. Then I was forbidden from leaving my own country to seek help, then they impoverished me. Unless you meant after I was a wanted criminal, while even speaking my name bears a life sentence or death, let alone if it turned out I was still actually alive and they would happily give out those orders to - oh, what was that, 'kill the rebel woman Lakshmi first amongst all the leaders'. Shall I walk in the front door of Parliament, where, I might add, the Knights reside as they are part of the British Government which if you had been listening at all I noted several times was entirely corrupt? Or shall I sneak up on an immortal warrior in his bedchamber and wait to see what happens hoping that maybe this one would listen?
[ And with that done, she gives her one flat look, Really? Do you think she hadn't thought about it? ]
Indeed. In the time of King Arthur, so I am told, the knights set out to find the Holy Grail, to fight against the Half-Breeds who had started to beset their lands. I am sure you know those legends.
[ It was written into the English blood like the Mahabharata was into any child of Hindustan. ]
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Date: 2019-02-01 02:27 pm (UTC)Those who could not stand by those that loved them did not deserve their protection. ]
Your word, Kitty, that is all I need. [ And while she is here - in that same flat, even delivery that promises and never, never takes back. ] I will never see that happen to you, not ever. No matter what passes, I would cut my own hands off before I let another take you to such a fate.
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Date: 2019-02-02 03:11 am (UTC)[ She finds a flush creeping over her face, deep enough that she can feel it in her ears. It's not embarrassment, it's - it's something far more complicated than that. She doesn't know what to do with the feeling. ]
I just - I didn't mention it because I wanted you to...My point is that I've faced it before, and I'm willing to face it again. I don't dislike war 'cause I'm some coward.
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Date: 2019-02-03 05:33 am (UTC)[ She takes the steps back, firm, that roll of shoulders and the flat way she places her steps that land, shoulder width apart, ready for - something, anything. Always. ]
Because in the best case scenario, everything you do is pointless, nothing changes and you just wasted your time. In the worst, when you finally manage to execute someone who does matter, you bring down war but to people that never even had a chance to defend themselves because you thought you would be enough to protect them, you thought it would be better this way. It isn't, it never was, and you can't spare them and you never could. Then they will hate you all the more for thinking you were God to their prayers.
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Date: 2019-02-03 01:35 pm (UTC)I'm not saying that assassination is perfect. I'm not saying it's even good. Again, I - my - I've seen what comes of it. [ Best not to dwell. If Lakshmi didn't take any great note of the confession of Kitty-the-teenage-assassin, then - best not to remind her of it. ] It's another bad option, but it's better than war. But neither of them is the right way to go.
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Date: 2019-02-05 08:27 am (UTC)So get ready in two weeks for her to bring up that murder. ]
No, it isn't. It's just a precursor to war, except now you've been a fool and not given anyone an ability to defend themselves. Violence begets violence, and if you begin in it you will end in more of it.
[ The last, she grits out, hard in her mouth as a horse would go against a bit. Hurt, so painfully cut to the quick. ] I listened to you - when you said that the common man were treated worse than animals in your homeland. Even when it offended my faith to see you treat an animal so. I have stood beside Englishmen in their own lands to help fight their government on their own soil. I listened, to their pain and suffering, like it was my own. Perhaps you could do me the favour of listening in return instead of judging those who were pushed too far. The heroes of my land who gave their lives to free their home.
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Date: 2019-02-05 12:28 pm (UTC)I'm pretty sure what you did was insist that I apologize to the animal and then stormed home and stopped talking to me for weeks when I wouldn't. That's quite a liberal definition of 'listened to me.'
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Date: 2019-02-05 12:41 pm (UTC)I asked you to do something that mattered to me, but you insisted you did not have to care about other than that which has grieved you. Yes, I grew angry with you. Yes I took my time to my peace with it and understand where you came from. But I did, and I did not belittle you for feeling as you did once I understood it, I was wrong.
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Date: 2019-02-05 12:49 pm (UTC)[ Anyway. ]
And I'm not judging your heroes. I don't know anything about your heroes. I'm saying that war is the wrong choice. Always. Because it's a hundred times more people who suffer, and they suffer for years, and it drags on and on and on with more and more deaths while the leaders get fat off the profits. At least if there's an assassination, they've got to suffer themselves, rather than sitting around chuckling about how much they made selling guns.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:05 pm (UTC)Kitty! I don't expect you to understand but if I must spell out to you - I will.
[ slow breath, slow breath. ]
Stop thinking so small or you will never change anything. I killed a damn man in tevinter, did it stop Corypheus the next week from taking the city? No? Funny that.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:08 pm (UTC)So you've accomplished all your goals, have you? The British government's been brought low, there are no more werewolves or vampires, and your homeland's free?
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:10 pm (UTC)I didn't. But America did. France did. The Haitians did.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:14 pm (UTC)Maybe they've achieved independence in your world, sure. But that only answers one of my questions. Is the British government brought low, and are the abuses of people that force them to become werewolves ended.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:19 pm (UTC)[ she won't pretend she hasn't turned England's streets to battlefields, because there are things she has sorrow for, it isn't helping people who had no one else to stand for them. ]
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:22 pm (UTC)Where did vampirism come from? And - werewolf-ism? [ Whatever the word for it is. ] How did it get started?
Don't ask me things canon never tells me.
Date: 2019-02-05 01:28 pm (UTC)The time of King Arthur, I'm told.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:37 pm (UTC)You don't know anything other than that? [ Well - ] Why do vampires make more vampires? And how many of the werewolves are voluntarily so? D'you have any allies who are vampires or werewolves?
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:42 pm (UTC)[ You know, the second of oldest and only one likely to give her a straight answer because Lancelot is a jerk that she'd gotten killed.
Wait, shit - ]
I tend not befriend those would eat the flesh of children or gladly let others do so.
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:45 pm (UTC)The Knights? Who are they?
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Date: 2019-02-05 01:52 pm (UTC)The Order of Her Majesty's Knights. Blackcoats is what everyone else calls them. Eternally sworn to protect England's shores against the Half-breed scourge. Or something like that. These days they mostly butcher the poor on United India's orders.
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Date: 2019-02-06 02:09 am (UTC)Surprised you haven't mentioned them yet.
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Date: 2019-02-06 06:26 am (UTC)They didn't matter until I came to England. Technically our goals were aligned, regardless of the fact they had been twisted and corrupted like the rest of their land to ever see it that way.
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Date: 2019-02-06 07:35 pm (UTC)That's a grand idea Kitty, of course, I should I do that. Why did I never think of it? [ Then she clicks her fingers, theatrically rude. Perhaps Byerly would be proud of just how scathing it comes out. ] Wait, I forgot, I sent them letters that never reached them. Because Lord Hastings and his ilk carry all the letters in and out of India, and had stopped them from leaving by destroying it all because the entire British system is in their pocket. Then I was forbidden from leaving my own country to seek help, then they impoverished me. Unless you meant after I was a wanted criminal, while even speaking my name bears a life sentence or death, let alone if it turned out I was still actually alive and they would happily give out those orders to - oh, what was that, 'kill the rebel woman Lakshmi first amongst all the leaders'. Shall I walk in the front door of Parliament, where, I might add, the Knights reside as they are part of the British Government which if you had been listening at all I noted several times was entirely corrupt? Or shall I sneak up on an immortal warrior in his bedchamber and wait to see what happens hoping that maybe this one would listen?
[ And with that done, she gives her one flat look, Really? Do you think she hadn't thought about it? ]
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Date: 2019-02-06 10:00 pm (UTC)[ A curious look. ]
What - like you are?
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Date: 2019-02-08 11:10 am (UTC)[ It was written into the English blood like the Mahabharata was into any child of Hindustan. ]
What they came back with is the Blackwater.
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