Fuck, yeah. I-... An explosion went off real near me, and I got thrown, and I was thinking, 'fuck, I'm dead, and this is all I've done with my life?' And when I came to, I wasn't dead, and I just- I ran. I ran until I got to the coast and I saw a ship and I swam to it. I didn't have a plan. I just fucking ran. I... I've never told anybody that. Fuck.
So, yeah, think what you want about me.
Edited (this hobby would be so much easier if i was literate.) Date: 2019-10-20 07:49 pm (UTC)
Well, I can't tell you how you ought to see yourself. I don't know. But in my experience, cowardice is a word that gets thrown around to keep people fighting long after it would have been sensible to walk away.
Do you not like nicknames? I'll call you that if you want, but... calling someone an animal is the worst insult. As far as I'm concerned. [As far as the Qun is.]
[A quiet sound, it could be a laugh or a sigh.] You're too much.
I believe in responsibility. I'm at least partially responsible, and even if I wasn't, I'm a division head. It's my responsibility to look out for people with less range than me. Less... room. What- what you said, less power.
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Date: 2019-10-20 07:32 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-10-20 07:48 pm (UTC)So, yeah, think what you want about me.
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Date: 2019-10-20 08:33 pm (UTC)[ Difficult as ever, this girl. ]
So you're ashamed of it?
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Date: 2019-10-20 08:35 pm (UTC)[Tiredly,] I left my sten behind. They were counting on me, and I left them. Ashamed... that's a good word. Yes, ashamed.
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Date: 2019-10-20 08:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 08:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 08:51 pm (UTC)Kitty.
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Date: 2019-10-20 08:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 08:57 pm (UTC)Kitty is a nickname. My real name's Kathleen. [ A beat. ] Don't call me that, though.
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Date: 2019-10-20 08:59 pm (UTC)Ashkaari is a term of respect. It means 'one who seeks'. The people who look in unexpected places, who see things where others don't.
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:06 pm (UTC)[ She finds herself flushing. Self-conscious, shy - ]
I do...read a lot, I guess.
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:28 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 09:46 pm (UTC)[ But... ]
I appreciate it, though.
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:50 pm (UTC)Lemme know if there's any shit I can do to help.
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:52 pm (UTC)[ A pause. That might be the end of it, except that - ]
Just one thing.
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Date: 2019-10-20 09:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 10:02 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-20 10:05 pm (UTC)I believe in responsibility. I'm at least partially responsible, and even if I wasn't, I'm a division head. It's my responsibility to look out for people with less range than me. Less... room. What- what you said, less power.
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Date: 2019-10-21 02:39 am (UTC)Don't think I've ever heard anyone in power trying to take responsibility before.
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Date: 2019-10-24 03:42 pm (UTC)Take care, ashkaari.